I’m not in Asia at the moment.
I was supposed to be somewhere in Thailand drinking fresh coconuts and rocking some awkward tan lines, but I’m not. I decided to stay, for something – for someone. It didn’t work out, in fact it exploded in the worst possible way and something that was quite lovely became toxic and painful. But, at the very least, I know and I can move forward with a clear mind and a heavy, but hopeful heart.
This poster is probably the single most moving piece of text I’ve ever read, because it always seems to find me when I need it most. Sometimes we get so caught up in our day-to-day lives or heartache that we forget to start living, truly and without restriction.
The thing is, we only get one shot at this life thing so you gotta do what works for you.
It’s always sad, mourning that loss. But one thing I’ve learned over the years is to trust in the universe, no matter how uncomfortable or confusing something is. Because it always seems, somewhere down the track – whether it be a month or a year – you get this sense of knowing, of understanding.
You finally understand everything before this moment had to happen exactly as it did so that you can be here, present, and in this moment.
Right now that feels a world away, but I know it’s awaiting me and I’m excited to experience that feeling, in time.
For now I’ve decided to focus on the wonderful and beautiful things in my life, rather than all the hurt and confusion. So these are my goals.
* At present I’ve visited 31 countries, which is pretty decent for two years travel. For 2013 I’d like to get up to 40 and I probably should finally tackle China seeing as everyone goes on about how amazing it is.
* I want to volunteer, a lot. It’s the one thing that really speaks to me, and it’s the thing I’ve failed to do more of on my travels.
* I want to see my friends and family more. I’m pretty good and disappearing off the face of the planet for a year at a time, but after meeting my nephew and being around my family and friends a bit longer this trip, this no longer feels like a viable option
* I want to learn to meditate. I want to get deep inside my mind and learn more about myself.
* I want to take a Thai massage course
* I want to get to South America, or at least Central America.
* I want to do more random acts of kindness
* I want to finish my photography E-Book that I’ve been neglecting since April
* I want to cuddle some elephants
* I want to find a balance between enjoying now but preparing for my future
* I want to turn this blog into the helpful resource I know it can be
But most of all, I want to fall in love with this crazy world all over again. I’m giving myself the world, like I’ve done many times before, but this time I’m going to give myself to the world too. I’m going to dive in, arms wide, and I’m going to see what kind of adventure I end up on.
What’s on your list for 2013? Inspire me! This list will be a work of progress and I’m looking forward to reflecting on it at the end of next year.
